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this is me


○ Apple Gabrielle
○ Eighteen
○ Aries
○ April 14, 1990
○ Baguio City, Philippines
○ Out of School Youth
○ Tukmoliscious Club

♥-heart.desires-♥
because i love them


○ Love
○ Trust
○ Friendship
○ Honesty
○ Truthfulness
○ Reasons
○ Intelligence
○ Green
○ Apple
○ Shopping
○ I-pod

♥-heart.rejects-♥
all i despise


○ Hatred
○ Lies
○ Enemies
○ Doubts
○ Injustice
○ Dumbness
○ Ghosts
○ Annoyance
○ Disrespect
○ Strangers

♥-sweet.nothings-♥
say it to my face





♥-what.i.have-♥
the reason i blog


i'm baaakkk!!! :]
a few days left...
3 months to go...
Stopping School. Depression Treatment
nang ako'y mag birthday. :]
bagong lay outs!
depression for a week :[
hindi kayang ibalik ng bulaklak ang nakaraan.
EX ko na siya..
isang MAJOR FIGHT. sabi ng friends ko.


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♥-music-♥
put your headphones on


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♥-thank.you-♥
i'm soulfully grateful

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i'm baaakkk!!! :]
11:36 PM
Monday, January 19, 2009

hi everyone! i'm finally back! yehey! hehe. :]

i got out from the hospital last january 15. there was a massive welcome back party at home here in baguio where most of my close friends have attended! it was like a huge birthday bash for me!

i was so happy to be finally out! i promise i won't do anything for me to be locked up in that wretched hospital again! :]

i missed you guys! expect me to be online often starting today! hehe. although i can't stay logged in for very long, at least i can already update you with my everyday boring life in the next weeks, months and even years! hehe.

love you guys! i missed you all so much! :]


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a few days left...
10:53 PM
Friday, January 2, 2009

writing in english for oanh's benefit. haha! i will talk to you when i get out. :]

finally i'm well!

i will be discharged on january 15. i'm so happy!

actually, i am already allowed to be discharged this week, but i still have to undergo a series of tests. they were doubting that i was faking my wellness. haha! :]

so that's it. i'll be going out on the 15th.

there are new rules and regulations that my dad implemented as i will be discharged. here they are:

1. NO MANILA TRIPS. because daddy thought that all my problems came when i was in manila. it's ok. there are some things in manila which i wanted to forget, anyway. :]

2. NO PARTIES AND GOING OUT WITH FRIENDS. strictly, my daily life routine would be school-house. it's also fine with me because i also wanted to lie low of some things that i was doing before. i know this is for my own benefit. i'm allowed to go out only if i will be with my cousins and ishie.

3. NO BOYFRIENDS. because daddy also thought that daniel was one reason of my depression. haha! well, daniel is one reason why the first rule is ok with me.

4. VISITING HOURS WILL BE FOLLOWED. since i can't go out, i'm allowed to be visited by firends. but only those whom my dad knows. those personal friends of mine whom my dad will be listing. haha! at least there are still a lot whom my dad knows personally. even phone calls will be restricted only to those whom my dad personally knows.

5. NO CELLPHONES. yes, as usual, no cellphones. how crazy! but i've grown used to not having cellphones that it's fine with me. :]

6. INTERNET USAGE TO BE UNDER SURVEILLANCE. so everytime i open my computer, i'll be under strict surveillance. not by my dad, nor by my mum or my sister, but by my yaya! haha! and i can't bribe my yaya! haha! :]

so that's it! haha! i'll be in total confinement at home until dad is sure that i'm very, very well. i might also transfer to cebu, where dad's business has a branch. :]

it's alright. might be really hard at first, but i know it's for my own good!

i miss you, guys! this is the only means of communication we have so i hope you won't forget me!

be prepared! i'll be back soon! :]


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3 months to go...
8:40 PM
Sunday, October 26, 2008

hindi ko akalain. nakaka 4 months na pala ako dito. 6 months ang minimum confinement. kaya may 2-3 months pa ako bago makalabas.

sobrang deprived ako ng mga bagay na taken for granted ko lang noon. buhay ko dito, kwarto-dining room-garden-visitation lounge. walang net, walang cellphone, walang telephone. wala lahat. bawal lahat.

ngayon, nakapag net ako dahil naipasok ni dettie laptop niya. haha! ang tanga nung guard. kasi special treatment daw ako, pag sinabi ko kilala ko yung bisita, hindi na chini-check. malaking pagkakamali!

wala si mommy ngayon, nasa manila. babalik siya mamayang hapon. naaawa na ako kay mommy. grabe pag aalaga niya sa akin. siguro, isang motivation na din yun para talagang magpagaling ako.

konting tiis na lang talaga. miss ko nang mag aral.malapit na. next year, makakapag aral ulit ako.

hindi ko alam kung babalik akong manila paglabas ko dito. baka kasi dito na ako pag aralin ni daddy. or kung hindi, sa cebu.haha!

ewan ko, time will tell. sa ngayon, pahinga muna ako. pagaling. hehe.

miss ko na kayo. sana na miss niyo din ako. :]


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Stopping School. Depression Treatment
5:17 AM
Thursday, June 12, 2008

akala ko, ok na ako. ok naman ako, diba? hehe. pero sabi ng doctor nung last akong nagpa check up, may depression pa din daw ako at nasa denial ako. haaayy..i've been into psychiatry subjects pero hindi ko pa din ma getz kung paano nila na prove na may sakit pa din ako.

pumunta ako ng banaue nung mga second week of may para mag unwind daw. nalaman na ni daddy na may sakit ako. i thought magagalit siya. pero naramdaman kong sonehow, daddy ko nga siya. hehe.

hindi nag work ang pag unwind. nagpa psychology test uli ako. meron pa din daw. tinatanong nila ako ng kung anu-ano. sumasagot naman ako ng maayos. well for me, maayos yun pero sa kanila hindi. ewan ko sa kanila. maybe i'm really sick.

they decided na dito ako sa baguio magpagamot. sabi kasi ng doctor, madaming stressors sa manila kaya hindi muna ako babalik doon. ayun, natigil tuloy ako sa pag aaral. sabi ko kay daddy, sayang cum laude ko. sabi niya ok ang basta gumaling ako. sana naman, noon pa sinabi na niya na ok lang kahit hindi ako ma cum laude, hindi siguro masisira ang utak ko.

sabi nila, nakakabaliw ang sobrang katalinuhan. totoo nga ba? ewan ko. hindi naman ako baliw, may mild depression lang. minimum of 6 months ang treatment ko. sana naman, wag nang tumagal. hehe. hindi ako mahihiyang sabihin na sa mental institute ako ma co-confine. eh yun talaga eh.

pero ok ako. alam kong ok ako. kailangan ko lang talaga sigurong sumunod sa gusto nila para maging mas ok pa ako.

house arrest muna ako sa ngayon. nest week na daw ako ico-confine. ayun. sana naman, maging maayos na buhay ko by the end of this year.

mami-miss ko kayo! absent muna ako ha. hehe. :]


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nang ako'y mag birthday. :]
8:13 AM
Monday, April 14, 2008

well, nung sabado, may duty kami. 3-11. pero anong nangyari at nag absent ako, si daniel at si ishie? sina jamie at hanna pati si noel, ok lang kasi 7-3 sila.

mahal talaga ako ng barkada ko. biruin niyo, nag absent yung dalawang tukmol na ka grupo ko dahil sa birthday party ko? hehe.

teka, diba 14 ang birthday ko? pero bakit kaya nung sabado ako nag celebrate? well kasi, majority sa friends ko, were available nung saturday. hehe.

dumating ang mga close high school friends ko na sina mia, jinx at yung epal niyang bf na si jew tapos si carissa at ang super hin-hin niyang bf na si franz. ayun.

tapos ang mga dakilang ate! dettie at mommy andie! hehe. ang saya nun, bihira ko lang kasing makita yung mga tukmol na yun kaya sobrang saya ko at nakapunta sila sa birthday ko.

wala namang kaguluhan. nag celebrate ako sa.. sa bulwagang pang kudeta ni senator trillanes, MANILA PENINSULA HOTEL! haha. ang saya, sana nga, yung time na yun na lang nangyare yung mutiny. hehe.

wala masyado akong maku-kwento, mas madami kasing inhumang naganap kaysa sa party talaga. well siyempre, may super party talaga pero ewan, mas masayang mag kwentuhan kesa kumain at mag emcee-emcee ek-ek.

si jinx, nalasing agad, ayun, umuwi ng maaga. by midnight, sina reese din at mommy andie. yung iba? umuwi sa kwarto ko sa hotel! haha!

sobrang saya talaga. kahit hindi ako nag debut at yung mga 18-18 na kung anu-ano, masaya pa rin. nakapag unwind pa din kahit nag absent! haha! :]


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bagong lay outs!
10:24 AM
Thursday, April 10, 2008

ayan, wala lang, feel ko lang i blog. hehe. i changed the lay outs of my MULTIPLY and my BLOG.

masyado pa ding green, pagpasensyahan niyo na ako. minsan ko lang magagawa ito. absent kasi ngayong araw. haha! :]


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depression for a week :[
2:37 AM
Tuesday, March 4, 2008

nung isang linggo, ewan ko, bigla na lang akong nakaramdam ng matindin lungkot and i decided not to go to school.

i thought it was normal. feeling ko kasi dahil lang sa stress pero i noticed, i've been refusing people na. ayaw ko nang lumabas ng kwarto tapos hindi ko na sinasagot mga tawag ng friends ko.

hindi ko pinaalam sa mga kaibigan ko ang nangyari sa akin. i wanted to keep everything secret.

dinala ako ni mommy sa psychiatrist nung last tuesday at na diagnose nga ako with MILD DEPRESSION.

sabi ng doctor, dahil daw sa stress and some stressful events din na nangyari sa buhay ko. hindi ko actually alm kung anu-ano yung stressful events na yun ang alam ko lang, sobrang pagod ako.

pagod sa pag aaral, pagod sa duties, pagod sa paggawa ng requirements at pagod kay daniel. gusto ko nang mawala si daniel. gusto ko nang mawala ako sa harapan niya.

kung hindi lang at stake ang grades ko, lilipat akong school pero hindi na pwede eh. mag fo-fourth year na ako.

nung friday, bigla kong naisip na uminom nung sleeping pills ni mommy. as in yung isang bote. haha! pero buti na lang napigilan ko sarili ko.

nakausap ko si irish sa telepono nung friday. sinabihan niya si yaya na bantayan ako day and night at was daw akong hayaang mag lock ng kwarto.

ok lang naman ako. dahil lang nga malamang sa sterss yun. ok na ako nung sabado. i tried to go to my duty kagabi pero hindi ko kinaya. ewan ko. i feel like i'm not myself lately.

ayun, absent uli ako today and might be gone soon..


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